THE CONFESSIONS OF AN ALCOHOLIC

June 25,2010:

                       The day was beautiful though the sun was scorching because it was the day I met her.When I passed a ticket to a passenger in the bus,I saw her and smiled.She stared back at me.That look was enough to bind me.I do not want to describe how beautiful she is.It is because I envy the person who may read it and imagine her beauty.But her eyes were so special.They were elliptical but disobeyed x^2/a^2  + y^2/b^2 = 1.Btw I forgot to tell, I study B.Sc Mathematics in Presidency college and she, some course in Ethiraj.Who requires the course?

June 28,2010:

                     The previous two days were not worthy because I did not meet her.Do you wonder what is so special today? I talked with her.She was explaining the ticket checker how she had forgot her bus pass with her reddish lips that converged as she spoke.I went there and gave the ticket checker Rs.500.They left her and warned her not to repeat this."What can I do to you in return ?" she asked.I stood there with no reaction and scratched my head."I will tell you over the phone" I said.She moved two yards swiftly,stood and said "96644745"."The last digit ?" I asked her. "Find it" she winked and moved away.

June 29,2010:

                     Today i could not spot her in the usual bus.The evening I wasted Rs.8 calling the persons from 966447451 to 966447458.I prayed to God that the next number must be hers.God answered my prayer."Hello" her voice was angelic."I got your number" I said and laughed.There was a silence from that end.I imagined her to have blushed.I felt as if I was bathing in Kuttralam.

June 30,2010:                   

                      I am tense.Wonder why?It is because I am going to propose her my love.She had donned a pink chudithar today.When i proposed she turned out of shyness and ran.I was perplexed.The next minute I got a call.It was her.She said "I love you".I felt like jumping over the sky.

July 1,2010:

                    I called her and asked if she could come to express avenue today."Meet you in an hour" she said.We went there I presented her a necklace worth my car.She hugged me and said "I love you".We had a dine then.And later I dropped her at her home.

July 2,2010:

                   We met at spencer plaza today.She asked which style we would follow in marriage.I told her that we would marry in every style from Tambrahm to Catholic Christian.Her eyes were wet and she said "I love you"

July 3,2010:

                  "I envy it" I said pointing to her anklets."They stay with you forever" I showed a false anger."We will be together for good my man.I ll never leave you.I love you" she said.

July 4,2010:

                    I went to a doctor possibly after six years as I felt a bit unwell.He told me something.I came home and cried for a while.

July 5,2010:

                   She called me and asked why I did not call her the previous day.I kept mum.She kept on repeating the same for four timies.I had cut the call then.

July 10,2010:

                   The previous four days she called me and I did not attend them.I called her today.She was a bit angry as she felt ignored.I told her that I wanted to meet her today.At the end of the call she said "I love you".I smiled at myself.

                    "For what gift have you come today?" I asked her."What are you blabbering?Do you mean I am after you for your richness? " she cried." Do you expect me to say no for that ?" I yelled.She ran fast shutting the door.After few moments she called and said " I hate you".I cried heavily and i started to booze.

January 11,2011:

                   I wrote everything that was noteworthy in my diary.People call me alcoholic.Do you know why i did split up with her? It is because I love her.I do not want her to be seen in grief.She is very beautiful when she is happy and more beautiful when she smiles.I do not want her to be a widow.I want her to be happy.I love her.

                    Writing so he closed his diary.Tears rolled from his eyes.He kissed the diary and kept it aside.He then had an eternal sleep in his bed in a hospital that read "CANCER INSTITUTE OF CHENNAI"